This the season!!

So, it is Christmas time! I don't know why, but I am OVERLY excited about this time of year more so than I have ever been before. You're probably thinking it is because it is my first Christmas as a married person. Maybe that is true. That might be part of it. I have a lot of things that I can be thankful for: being a newlywed, having married into an amazing family (I LOVE all my in-laws), possibly being in a new house by the new year. The list could go on and on. God has truly blessed me beyond what I could ever imagine. I can not believe that it has already snowed 2 or 3 times already before Christmas. That makes me happy, but at the same time it kind of scares me. I hope it does not get too bad to where I will not be able to get out and do my Christmas shopping and work and all that other good stuff that grown ups have to do.

In Christ Alone

In Christ alone, my hope is found.
He is my light, my strength, my song.
This cornerstone, this solid ground.
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace.
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease.
My comforter, my all in all,
here in the love of Christ, I stand.

In Christ alone, who took on flesh.
Fullness of God in helpless babe.
This gift of love and righteousness,
Scorned by the ones he came to save.
'Til on that cross as Jesus died.
The wrath of God was satisfied.
For every sin on Him was laid.
Here in the death of Christ, I live.

There in the ground His body lay,
Light of the world by darkness slain.
Then bursting forth in glorious day,
Up from the grave He rose again.
And as He stands in victory,
Sin's curse has lost it's grip on me.
For I am His, and He is mine.
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

No guilt in life, no fear in death.
This is the power of Christ in me.
From life's first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.
No pwer of hell, no scheme of man
Could ever pluck me from His hand.
'Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ, I'll stand.

God of Wonders

Lord of all creation,
Of water, earth, and sky
The heavens are your tabernacle.
Glory to the Lord on high!

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
You are holy, holy.
The universe declares your majesty
You are holy, holy.

Lord of Heaven and Earth.
Lord of Heaven and Earth.

Early in the morning,
I will celebrate the light.
As I stumble through the darkness,
I will call your name by night.

God of wonders beyong our galaxy,
You are holy, holy.
The universe declares your majesty,
You are holy, holy.

Lord of Heaven and Earth.
Lord of Heaven and Earth.

Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and Earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and Earth.
Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and Earth.

God of wonders beyond our galaxy,
You are holy, holy.
Precious Lord, reveal your heart to me.
Father holy, holy.
The universe declares your majesty.
You are holy, holy.
Holy, holy.

Hallelujah to the Lord of Heaven and Earth. (6x)

The Christ of the Psalms

[I know that this is my 3rd post involving the book of Psalm, but I love that book a lot and I find really interesting things to think about that are worth sharing with you. Hope you enjoy this. This post is talking about Christ in the Psalm, how He's portrayed in the verse, and where you can find that this portrayal is fulfilled somewhere else in the Bible. Hope you take the time to look it up. It's interesting how many times He is mentioned in this book. SBF]

Psalm 2:7- The Son of God- Matthew 3:17

Psalm 8:2- Praised by children- Matthew 21:15-16

Psalm 8:6- Ruler of All- Hebrews 2:8

Psalm 16:10- Rises from death- Matthew 28:7

Psalm 22:1- Forsaken by God- Matthew 27:46

Psalm 22:7-8- Derided by Enemies- Luke 23:35

Psalm 22:16- Hands and feet pierced- John 20:27

Psalm 22:18- Lots cast for clothes- Matthew 27:35-36

Psalm 34:20- Bones unbroken- John 19:32-33, 36

Psalm 35:11- Accused by false witnesses- Mark 14:57

Psalm 35:19- Hatred without cause- John 15:25

Psalm 40:7,8- Delights in God's will- Hebrews 10:7

Psalm 41:9- Betrayed by a friend- Luke 22:47

Psalm 45:6- The eternal King- Hebrews 1:8

Psalm 68:18- Ascends to Heaven- Acts 1:9-11

Psalm 69:9- Zealous for God's house- John 2:17

Psalm 69:21- Given vinegar and gall- Matthew 27:34

Psalm 109:4- Prays for Enemies- Luke 23:34

Psalm 110:1- Rules over His enemies- Matthew 22:44

Psalm 110:4- A priest forever- Hebrews 5:6

Psalm 118:22 The chief stone of God's building- Matthew 21:42

Psalm 118:26- Comes in the name of the Lord- Matthew 21:9

Fall Retreat

Here in a couple weeks, John and I both are going to be going with the youth group to the fall retreat at Camp Hickory Hills. I can't wait until it gets here. I think I'm more excited that John is going with us than the retreat. I am really excited about the retreat too, but I'm SUPER glad that John is coming. I think he'll love it and I know that everyone there will LOVE him! He is so good with kids. I guess he gets that from helping his mom, a teacher.

The fall retreat this year has a great theme. It's going to be about choices. I think that this would be a very great thing for our youth group, especially for the oldest members. Friday night, we're going to talk about Daniel's choices. Saturday, we're going to talk about Jesus' choices. For worship on Sunday, we're going ot talk about our faith, the most important choice. We're also going to have three sessions on Saturday. We're going ot talk about career choices, chosing friends, and chosing a mate. All of these choices are big ones, and these people all had big choices to make. I think this will be a great weekend.

I've been thinking about this weekend for weeks, especially here in the past couple weeks. I don't think I've ever had a topic from a retreat on my mind this long before the retreat than I have this time. I've been thinking about me, and if I've been making the right choices. I've also been thinking about the kids this weekend who are going, and about how these topics can benefit them. I've also been thinking about how they're going to turn out when they get out of high school and they "grow up". I've been praying that they make the right decisions and that they grow up to be great christian people.

I just thought I'd share this. This isn't new by any means to anyone. I need to hear this too. The choices we make affect every part of our lives. We have to make sure we make the right decisions, and we don't be to hasty in making them. I'm guilty of being hasty, and I often make the wrong decision. Sometimes we all make wrong decisions, and we have to live with the consequences. That can be hard sometimes. The good thing is, though, that God is there to help us through everything. That's great. Keep that in mind the next time you have to make a decision.

Other Noteable Psalms

{I know I just posted something about some Psalms. I found this, and thought I'd add this too. This is a little different from the other one. SBF}

Pleas for Help in time of trouble: 5, 7, 25, 31, 61

Prayers when near despair: 39, 42, 43, 55, 73, 77, 86, 102, 103

Prayers for forgiveness and help: 6, 32, 38, 51, 143

God's goodnes: 4, 11, 23, 27, 62, 91, 115, 121, 125

Israel's cry of anguish at God's anger: 44, 74, 80, 85

Praise with shouts and singing: 33, 47, 66, 81, 95, 96, 98, 149

Praise for God's personal blessings: 18, 30, 34, 40, 92, 103, 107, 113, 116, 118, 146

Praise for God's blessings to Israel: 68, 77, 100, 108, 124, 126, 139

Praise for God's awesome Majesty: 8, 24, 29, 46, 50, 90, 93, 114, 145

Praise for God's law: 19, 119

Songs of war and vindication: 35, 58, 76, 79, 83, 109, 137

THe history of God and the People of Israel: 78, 105, 106

Nature: 19, 65, 104, 147, 148

The Messiah: 2, 16, 22, 45, 69, 89, 110, 132

Jerusalem and the Temple: 48, 84, 87, 122

The fates of the wicked and the righteous: 1, 15, 37, 49

Please pray for Caleb

There is a family that I am truly blessed to know that needs everyones prayers right now. Tim and Tiffany Brown, and their two oldest sons, Cody and Caleb were in Fall Creek Falls over the weekend. While visiting this beautiful place, a falling rock hit their son, Caleb (age 2). He is now in a hospital in Chattanooga, Tn. in a coma and in stable condition at the moment, howver the next 24 hours is VERY critical for him. This adorable little boy might not be the same when he wakes up. The swelling on his brain has gone down, but still not where it needs to be. He just recently was able to start making his own insulin again. His skull was fractured. Please ask everyone you know to pray for him. His family would really appreciate it!

Where to find encouragement in the book of Psalm

{I love the book of Psalm. It's a great book about lots of things. I thought that this might be something good to share with you. Hope you enjoy it. SBF}

When you feel abandoned- Psalm 10

When your whole world seems to be falling apart- Psalm 46

When you are afraid- Psalm 23; 91

When you feel guilty- Psalm 51

When your family gets on your nerves- Psalm 127;128

When you are facing a daunting challenge- Psalm 27

When you are discouraged by the apparent prosperity of the wicked- Psalm 37; 73

When you don't fell very thankful- Psalm 107

When you feel as if God has forgotten you- Psalm 139

When you are tempted to lose faith in God- Psalm 62

When you have lost your eternal perspective- Psalm 90

When you feel like you are barely hanging on- Psalm 86

When you are wondering what God expects- Psalm 15

When you want to know God better- Psalm 42; 64

When you need to be reminded of the goodness of God- Psalm 103

When you need to recommit yourself to serving God- Psalm 116

When you need wisdom- Psalm 119

When you need a reminder of God's mercy- Psalm 136

When you feel like celebrating- Psalm 95-100

Married life so far

So, I've been married for a little over a month. John and I are loving it so far. I could not have picked someone so great to grow old with. He's been my dream come true from the begining! I can't wait to see how the rest of our life turns out. We're trying to get used to some things about each other that we never really had to experience before we were married, but that's ok. I've done more cooking here since we got back from our honeymoon than I have ever really done before this. That's ok though. I'm glad I have his mom and grandmother (as well as my mom and grandmothers) to learn from. Just thought I'd touch base with everyone. I hope to post some pictures of the wedding and the honemoon up here soon so you all can see some. :)

So, this is totally crazy

I am getting married in 7 days! I thought this day would never come. I am the LUCKIEST girl in the whole entire world. John has blessed me in so many ways. I can't even count them all. It's funny. My mom and I kinda laugh at the fact that we never thought I'd end up marrying a guy from Ripley, Mississippi much less meeting someone else from that area. My great grandparents lived not far from there for at least 22 years in Dumas, Mississippi. I guess it's just a small world. HAHA. Anyway. It was good to see him today. I needed to see him just to keep my sanity just because it's been crazy this past week and I knew it would be even more crazy this coming week until this coming Saturday. I hope we all survive it! HAHA. I'm sure I'll have some pictures up soon after we get back from Oregon and we're all settled in at his appartment and I get in my new groove of being a wife PLUS a college student at the same time. That's going to be fun!

i hope i have all boys

Hey, all. Sorry I haven't been able to write anymore posts in a while. I've had a lot of other things to do for the wedding and I haven't had much computer time. I've really enjoyed planning for my wedding, but I don't think I could do it again no matter how much anyone paid me to. Part of me kind of hopes that I have all boys. How bad is that? I just have been so stressed through out this whole experience. It's unreal.

I need your help

I don't know what it is, but I hate admiting to someone else that I was wrong and that I sinned against them. I had to do that today. I don't know anyone who enjoys doing something like that. I've been needing to do that for a while now, but put it off (which is just as bad as not even doing it at all). I am afraid that the things I have done possibly messed up our friendship. That weighs very heavily on my heart and it bothers me to no end. I encourage everyone to admit their wrongdoings to God and to other people if they have sinned against other people no matter how long it has been. I can say from a little experience that it messes up your relationships with other people and with God. It drains out the feeling and it makes it harder to connect with people and with God. I know that being truly repentent will at least fix your relationship with God, and maybe even the relationships with other people. It may take time, but it can be done. I need your help to support me right now. I would really appreciate it.

What I like about the night

So I've been thinking today about how much I love the night time. It's so peaceful and quiet. And I love how it smells at night time. I never really noticed it as much until I was at least a Senior in high school. It just smells good, especially in spring time.

Something else I love about the night time is the lack of noise that can be heard during the day. Don't get me wrong, I love the day time, too. It's great. However, there's nothing like sitting outside on a porch or on a blanket in the yard at night with quiet surrounding you.

I also love the nights in the summer time. I live in a small town in the country. At night here, I enjoy coming outside to listen to the frogs and the crickets. They seem to be singing to the dancing fireflies who are so care free looking. I can't even fathom how much creativity it took to create a bug who can make the lower half of his body light up. I guess that's why I'm human.

The thing I like most about the night time is the moon. I love looking at the moon and trying to figure out whether or not the color of the moon is what I thought it would be. One of the things I love about the moon is the fact that it acts as a mirror among other things. Because it can't produce it's own light, it reflects the light of the sun.

A friend of mine from Freed and I had a somewhat lengthy conversation about this one night after church. I had gone back to campus to eat dinner after Bible study on a Wednesday (partly because I didn't have time to do it beforehand) and he went back to his house. He called me just as I was finishing up dinner and told me to look at the moon. So I did. The whole length of the conversation lasted with me sitting in the commons talking to him on the phone about the moon. I haven't looked at the moon the same way since that conversation.

We talked about how a christian should be like the moon. We can't reflet our own light (because we are humans, and we sin). A christian can't go through life by his or herself, because we are not perfect beings. Only one is perfect. If we could be perfect, there would not be any need for God, Jesus, his sacrefice or our need and the necessity of our salvation.

Christians are supposed to be examples to the world around us. Matthew 5:13-16 talks about how we are both salt and light to the world. The way we reflect Christ is by him living in us and us following him and walking in His light.

Christians are also commanded to go into the world and save the lost (Mt. 28:18-20; Mark 16:15-16). It is our responsibility to go save these people. God doesn't want any one to die but for everyone to be saved. Once we ourselves become christians, we have to learn how to deny ourselves and follow Christ (Mk 8:24). If we do that, then then the world can see Christ living in us and can see what kind of example we are. We need to shine the light from the SON as spiritual moons in this dark 'night' (the night being death) just like the physical moons shine light from the SUN at night.

Be the light, salt and a moon.

Fireproof

I am getting married in 93 days. Recently, our church did a study with the Love Dare book. I, unfortunately, wasn't involved in that. I should have been and I totally regret it now. I rented the movie Fireproof from the Nolensville Library earlier this week (Tuesday I think...). I really want to watch this movie, and then maybe even do the Love Dare book, too. For those of you who have seen the movie, studied the book or both, what were your thoughts about it. I think it would help me definately love my fiance more like God intended me to and I fully admit it. This was kind of difficult to admit, but I have to be honest with myself. Sometimes, I fall short and I don't love him like I need to and I struggle with that. It makes me angry and very sad when I realize that I fall short of that. Does anyone else struggle with that? I know I should be loving like HE loves all of us, but sometimes it's hard for me. I know I am human. Does anyone who has gone through the study, seen the movie, or faces the same things I have been have any advice they can give me? I could totally use it.

So guess what

I figured it out this morning. I'm getting married in 94 days!!

Here's what I've determined

I think I'm gonna change my posts a little from now on. I've been thinking about the things I've been writing on here in the past, and I am kinda sad that I didn't handle some of these things better. I'm sorry if I offended anyone, made anyone feel uncomfortable or anything. I guess I just felt that this was a way I could vent when I needed to. I did that a LOT and I didn't mean to vent all that much. This just seemed like the only place that I could do it and maybe get some support from other people. That was wrong. I am sorry. I will do better to keep my venting to myself or get it out in a different way.

Since that's taken care of, I have some other things I wanna just talk about. John and I are getting married August 14, 2010 at Crieve Hall church of Christ. I can't wait. My mom and I have been working on wedding plans almost non stop. We've already got our party picked out and I am very grateful that they all want to be apart of our big day. This is the day I've been looking forward to for all my life. I am glad I have found someone who I can share my life with. I've pretty much decided for sure about my colors- perriwinkle (spelling??) and white. I had some other ideas, but one of them was gonna be too dark for August, and the other one was being matched up in ways that would make it look like we were having a sports team wedding. I didn't want that at all (even though I am both a UK and Ole Miss fan). No sports wedding allowed.

Over the weekend, I got to hang out with some of the best people in the world. I'm not just saying that because we're gonna be family soon. These people are incredible. John's grandmother turned 90 on mother's day. John's mom's side of the family all came to town to help her celebrate. John and I went to Lebanon saturday to spend time with everybody. I had a blast. I got to meet some new people I hadn't met yet, and I really like all of them. It was great to see them. I left with a sunburn but I think it was all worth it. Sunday, John went back to Lebanon and I went with my parents to Kentucky to visit my dad's parents for mother's day. It was great to see them. My grandmother is letting me use her cake topper from when they got married a little over 50 years ago. I am so excited. It's gonna be so special.

I just can't even believe I am marrying someone who grew up close to where my great grandparents lived. I never thought that would happen. I am so blessed that God put him in my life. We did have our moments like every other couple does, and our period of separation and that was hard. I do think now that I look back on it that it was something that we needed to do to help us grow stronger together as a couple and it helped us keep God in our relationship where he needed to be.

God never ceases to amaze me. I learn new things about Him and from Him every day. I can't even describe what it's been like except by saying that I have never felt this close to Him in my life. Granted, I know I can always be closer, and my growth in Him and to Him will continue to get stronger and closer every day. Sometimes I forget and loose side of looking to Him first when things happen (good or bad). I know that I am not the only one who feels this way. Things can only get better from here! I can't wait! :)

Wow...

I know I say this a lot, but things have been so busy. I have been going out of town a lot lately. A couple weeks ago was Makin Music at FHU. My parents, John and I went to go see the social club I was in (and now my sister's in it) win! It was SO AWESOME. Their show was definately the one to beat. The weekend before that, I was at my grandparents house with my mom and dad. My aunt, uncle and two cousins came. We had a blast! I've been to Jackson, Tn. twice, Ripley, Ms. once (that's the first time I've been since before thanksgiving), and just all over. I kind of have a job now, and that's good. A family at church has an elderly family member living with them and I'm going to be sitting with her when she needs me to. I went to sit with her this past saturday, and I'm going again this coming Tuesday after I get out of class. I'm going to miss Lost tomorrow night, but that's ok. I plan to watch it sometime soon.It will be good. I really enjoyed it the last time I was there. Anyway... I will post more again tonight. I have a paper I have to finish that's due tomorrow at two. I can't wait until this weekend. It's Talladega time, and John's dad got us tickets. So, the both of us are going as well as James, their dad, and some family friends of theirs. I can't wait.

Man, when I get to thinkin...

I am totally really tired. I didn't sleep well last night. I was up late, in and out of sleep and got up early for class. BOO. I had a really wierd dream, and it made me kind of sad. I dreampt of a lady who had lost a child and then couldn't get over it and had made a doll of her child and took the doll around with her everywhere. She treated the doll like a real person and like the child had never died. I went up to her and asked her how she was doing. I noticed that she had the doll with her. She hugged me and went crazy. How sad is that. I don't remember who this person was. I knew that I knew her, but I wasn't sure who she was. Anyway... That's a really random dream. Just thought that I'd write it down... My 22nd birthday is tomorrow. How crazy is that! I'm gonna be 22. I feel kinda old. My mom and dad, next week, will be married for 24 years. It seems time has flown like nobody's business. Anyway. I am so tired and I think I'm gonna try to go to bed early. I don't know. I took my first test in Exceptional Learners today. I think I did better on the multiple choice than the essay questions. I feel like I could have been more prepared. I think now that I'm going to have to really buckle down and prepare better for the tests. Next week, we start chapter four in our text books. I've already started reading the chapter and writing down notes as I go. I will probably type them up once I get done writing them down.

O YEA... I forgot about Lost. These are my theories:

1. Everyone on the island is gonna die off one by one and leave the people in the "side story" alive as they are like they never left the island.
2. Somehow, the people on the island merge with their "side story" selves and continue to live, but remember stuff from the island.

From tonight's episode, here's what I think. I just have a feeling that there's going to be a way that John Locke (the side story) is going to be able to walk again. I think that somehow, he is going to get in touch with Jack (even though John's fiance tore up the business card), go to his free consult, and get the surgery he needs and ends up able to walk.

That's my splurge for the night. I don't think I've posted twice in one day until now. So, there you go...

[Insert witty title here]

I couldn't think of a title for this post. So my birthday is tomorrow. I don't know what I want. The past few years, it has been harder and harder for me to even think of anything that I want for my birthday or christmas. I hope I'm not the only one who feels that way. I guess I have just grown up some and there's not a lot that really appeals to me. Ya know?? John has a surprise for me tomorrow, and I don't know what it is. It's driving me nuts. I try to get it out of him but he doesn't crack! He's very good at surprises and keeping them until the time comes to reveal them. Hahaha. I can't wait. I have a test this afternoon and I probably should be studying, but I'm bored and I've been studying like CRAZY the past week or so. I'm kinda getting sick of the snow. I love it just as much as anybody else does, but when it conflicts with plans I may have, then it really seems to bug me. I'm grateful for that blessing because we don't get snow here very much, but it's really starting to bug me. I enjoy warm weather where I can walk around in a t-shirt and shorts, and I'm one of those people who kinda needs sunshine. It helps base my mood. I don't know how to explain it. I guess I got that from my dad. I dunno... Anyway.. There's my thought for today. Btw.. NEW LOST... I'll probably post again tonight about tonight's episode. I've gotten into that show a lot. Thanks to James and John (sons of thunder, lol...) for getting me hooked.

I'm excited

So I totally got a new template... YAY. I love it. I needed something new, and this seemed to fit me. I enjoy the color green and I thought the picture was cool. I'm also excited to be going out of town this weekend. I'm going to visit some friends in Jackson, Tn. and I can't wait. Probably gonna hit up a couple birthday parties while I'm there, and even going to see a movie! I hope that we see something good, and something worth paying to see. I just need time away, ya know? Maybe it will be good for me..

"Our Special Child"

A meeting was held quite far from earth.
It was time again for another birth.
Said the angels to the Lord above-
This special child will nead much love.
Her progress may be very slow,
Accomplishments she may not show.
And she'll require extra care
From the folks she meets down there.
She may not run or laugh or play,
her thoughts may seem quite far away.
So many times she will be labled different, helpless and disabled.
So let's be careful where she's sent.
We want her life to be content.
Please Lord, find the parents who will do a special job for you.
They will not realize it right away,
The leading role they are asked to play.
But with this child sent from above,
Comes stronger faith, and richer love.
And soon they'll know the privilege given,
In caring for their gift from heaven.
Their precious change, so meek and mild,
"Is heaven's very special child."

This was a poem written by someone who had a down syndrome child. This was printed in the paper I got at a funeral recently. I can't remember the authors name. I just thought that this would be something good to think about and be thankful for our children no matter if they are what society calls "normal" or "exceptional". Every child is special, and we are given MANY opportunities through EVER child to somehow change the world. Let's do a great job in changing the world, shall we?

YAY Improvements!!! :)

So, I've been doing a lot better today than I was a couple days ago when I made my last post. I totally slept til after 10 this morning. It felt SO GOOD. I've never really slept that late unless I was sick or I didn't sleep well the night before. I am kind of bored, though, because of the snow. I enjoy snow, it's very pretty. But it's TOO cold. I am growing rather restless. I don't know about other people, but I can not wait until April comes around. I LOVE warm weather and I am DEFINATELY looking foward to the day where I can wear a t-shirt, and shorts outside. I'm not really big on tennis shoes, so you better believe I'll be wearing flip flops. For now, I'm stuck with layering the clothes or just staying inside... :( Oh well... Soon I will be out of here. I've been watching so many movies that I think that I am going to have to re-watch them. We're not going to be able to go to worship tomorrow because the roads are so bad in my neighborhood. Btw, shout out to Ms. VA!! Congrats on being crowned Mrs. America!! You have a great opportunity to influence so many people and to be a great role model for many. Please do it well. I'm happy for you. Just thought I would post again. Who knows. I may have a lot more posts on here in the next few days.

Me relieving my depressing venting out.

Hey, all. I'm sorry I haven't been on in forever. Things have been really hectic lately. John and I have been back together for a little while now and things are great! I am so glad that we've worked things out and are moving forward. I am so blessed to have him in my life. Lately, I've been on a crazy roller coaster of emotions. On one hand I am feeling very successful. I made a B in the class I took last semester!! That totally makes me 'happier than a tornado in a trailor park'. (THANKS MATOR!) But on the other hand part of me kind of feels emotionally drained. I don't know what it is. I guess I've been giving a lot of myself to so many other things (like school, chores, trying to find a job, other friendships) that I'm feeling kinda dry. I don't know. I just don't really feel like I'm worth everything that I've been given and it kinda makes me sad. It kinda feels like my self-worth has gone down. I don't know how to explain it. Here lately, I've been trying to think of good things about myself and I can't name any. I know I'm just too hard on myself. Someone once said that you probably know yourself too well to think of good things about yourself (that's totally a paraphrase, but that's the kind of point that was being made). They also said that it's always easier for you to bash yourself, and you can usually bash yourself harder than other people can bash you EVER. I don't know. Maybe I'm just bashing myself too hard. Maybe I just need to get away for a little while and recharge my batteries. That would probably make me feel better, ya think? I think it would help to say no sometimes to things/people that are taking up more time than they need to. PHEW. I am hoping that all this will die down soon. I really need a job. If anyone hears of openings, PLEASE let me know somehow... I'm on facebook, so feel free to message me. Anyway. I will try to post more on here when I can. Again, I'm sorry for being such a stranger. Thank God tomorrow's friday!! I live for those days!