Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Capri by Colbie Callait

She's got a baby inside
and holds her belly tight
all through the night
just so she knows
she's sleeping so
safely to keep
her growing
and oh when she'll open her eyes
there'll be no surprise
that she'll grow to be
so beautifully
just like her mother
that's carrying
oh capri
she's beauty
baby inside she's loving
oh capri
she's beauty
there is an angel growin' peacfully
oh capri
sweet baby
and things will be hard at times
but i've learned to try
just listening
patiently, oh capri
sweet baby
oh capri
she's beauty
baby inside she's loving
oh capri
you're beauty
just like your mother
that's carrying... oh capri

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

So I don;t know where this has come from but John and I have been arguing a lot lately. I woke up with a headache this morning and vomitted. John and I argued last night on the way home to my house and every time we do I never feel like he wants me. I always feel like I'm just not making him happy. He wants me to lose weight and look a little better for him. I can understand him wanting to have a good looking girlfriend or fiance, but ya know, I don't understand why I'm the one doing this for him and he hasn't done anything for me... He has to lose weight and has no room to talk. I want him to look good but he attributes it all to laziness. I can't sit here and lose this weight for him and him not lose weight for himself in return. It's also hard for me to accept that he sometimes skips church. I grew up where I LOVED going to worship. God is my first priority, but it doesn't seem the first priority for him. I want it to be a first priority for him, I just don't see it. He's asked me to help him and I've tried, but every time i try to help him it doesn't seem that he appreciates my help and every different way i try to help him doesn't seem to work because he just sits there and gets upset with me. I don't know what else to do. I want this to be a testimony for the people who are dating. Relationships are a bunch of give and take, compromise and working things out. We need to find a healthy way to argue/disagree. It takes work and if you really love them, you'll do what you can to change and work through it TOGETHER.