Wow...

I know I say this a lot, but things have been so busy. I have been going out of town a lot lately. A couple weeks ago was Makin Music at FHU. My parents, John and I went to go see the social club I was in (and now my sister's in it) win! It was SO AWESOME. Their show was definately the one to beat. The weekend before that, I was at my grandparents house with my mom and dad. My aunt, uncle and two cousins came. We had a blast! I've been to Jackson, Tn. twice, Ripley, Ms. once (that's the first time I've been since before thanksgiving), and just all over. I kind of have a job now, and that's good. A family at church has an elderly family member living with them and I'm going to be sitting with her when she needs me to. I went to sit with her this past saturday, and I'm going again this coming Tuesday after I get out of class. I'm going to miss Lost tomorrow night, but that's ok. I plan to watch it sometime soon.It will be good. I really enjoyed it the last time I was there. Anyway... I will post more again tonight. I have a paper I have to finish that's due tomorrow at two. I can't wait until this weekend. It's Talladega time, and John's dad got us tickets. So, the both of us are going as well as James, their dad, and some family friends of theirs. I can't wait.

Man, when I get to thinkin...

I am totally really tired. I didn't sleep well last night. I was up late, in and out of sleep and got up early for class. BOO. I had a really wierd dream, and it made me kind of sad. I dreampt of a lady who had lost a child and then couldn't get over it and had made a doll of her child and took the doll around with her everywhere. She treated the doll like a real person and like the child had never died. I went up to her and asked her how she was doing. I noticed that she had the doll with her. She hugged me and went crazy. How sad is that. I don't remember who this person was. I knew that I knew her, but I wasn't sure who she was. Anyway... That's a really random dream. Just thought that I'd write it down... My 22nd birthday is tomorrow. How crazy is that! I'm gonna be 22. I feel kinda old. My mom and dad, next week, will be married for 24 years. It seems time has flown like nobody's business. Anyway. I am so tired and I think I'm gonna try to go to bed early. I don't know. I took my first test in Exceptional Learners today. I think I did better on the multiple choice than the essay questions. I feel like I could have been more prepared. I think now that I'm going to have to really buckle down and prepare better for the tests. Next week, we start chapter four in our text books. I've already started reading the chapter and writing down notes as I go. I will probably type them up once I get done writing them down.

O YEA... I forgot about Lost. These are my theories:

1. Everyone on the island is gonna die off one by one and leave the people in the "side story" alive as they are like they never left the island.
2. Somehow, the people on the island merge with their "side story" selves and continue to live, but remember stuff from the island.

From tonight's episode, here's what I think. I just have a feeling that there's going to be a way that John Locke (the side story) is going to be able to walk again. I think that somehow, he is going to get in touch with Jack (even though John's fiance tore up the business card), go to his free consult, and get the surgery he needs and ends up able to walk.

That's my splurge for the night. I don't think I've posted twice in one day until now. So, there you go...

[Insert witty title here]

I couldn't think of a title for this post. So my birthday is tomorrow. I don't know what I want. The past few years, it has been harder and harder for me to even think of anything that I want for my birthday or christmas. I hope I'm not the only one who feels that way. I guess I have just grown up some and there's not a lot that really appeals to me. Ya know?? John has a surprise for me tomorrow, and I don't know what it is. It's driving me nuts. I try to get it out of him but he doesn't crack! He's very good at surprises and keeping them until the time comes to reveal them. Hahaha. I can't wait. I have a test this afternoon and I probably should be studying, but I'm bored and I've been studying like CRAZY the past week or so. I'm kinda getting sick of the snow. I love it just as much as anybody else does, but when it conflicts with plans I may have, then it really seems to bug me. I'm grateful for that blessing because we don't get snow here very much, but it's really starting to bug me. I enjoy warm weather where I can walk around in a t-shirt and shorts, and I'm one of those people who kinda needs sunshine. It helps base my mood. I don't know how to explain it. I guess I got that from my dad. I dunno... Anyway.. There's my thought for today. Btw.. NEW LOST... I'll probably post again tonight about tonight's episode. I've gotten into that show a lot. Thanks to James and John (sons of thunder, lol...) for getting me hooked.

I'm excited

So I totally got a new template... YAY. I love it. I needed something new, and this seemed to fit me. I enjoy the color green and I thought the picture was cool. I'm also excited to be going out of town this weekend. I'm going to visit some friends in Jackson, Tn. and I can't wait. Probably gonna hit up a couple birthday parties while I'm there, and even going to see a movie! I hope that we see something good, and something worth paying to see. I just need time away, ya know? Maybe it will be good for me..

"Our Special Child"

A meeting was held quite far from earth.
It was time again for another birth.
Said the angels to the Lord above-
This special child will nead much love.
Her progress may be very slow,
Accomplishments she may not show.
And she'll require extra care
From the folks she meets down there.
She may not run or laugh or play,
her thoughts may seem quite far away.
So many times she will be labled different, helpless and disabled.
So let's be careful where she's sent.
We want her life to be content.
Please Lord, find the parents who will do a special job for you.
They will not realize it right away,
The leading role they are asked to play.
But with this child sent from above,
Comes stronger faith, and richer love.
And soon they'll know the privilege given,
In caring for their gift from heaven.
Their precious change, so meek and mild,
"Is heaven's very special child."

This was a poem written by someone who had a down syndrome child. This was printed in the paper I got at a funeral recently. I can't remember the authors name. I just thought that this would be something good to think about and be thankful for our children no matter if they are what society calls "normal" or "exceptional". Every child is special, and we are given MANY opportunities through EVER child to somehow change the world. Let's do a great job in changing the world, shall we?

YAY Improvements!!! :)

So, I've been doing a lot better today than I was a couple days ago when I made my last post. I totally slept til after 10 this morning. It felt SO GOOD. I've never really slept that late unless I was sick or I didn't sleep well the night before. I am kind of bored, though, because of the snow. I enjoy snow, it's very pretty. But it's TOO cold. I am growing rather restless. I don't know about other people, but I can not wait until April comes around. I LOVE warm weather and I am DEFINATELY looking foward to the day where I can wear a t-shirt, and shorts outside. I'm not really big on tennis shoes, so you better believe I'll be wearing flip flops. For now, I'm stuck with layering the clothes or just staying inside... :( Oh well... Soon I will be out of here. I've been watching so many movies that I think that I am going to have to re-watch them. We're not going to be able to go to worship tomorrow because the roads are so bad in my neighborhood. Btw, shout out to Ms. VA!! Congrats on being crowned Mrs. America!! You have a great opportunity to influence so many people and to be a great role model for many. Please do it well. I'm happy for you. Just thought I would post again. Who knows. I may have a lot more posts on here in the next few days.

Me relieving my depressing venting out.

Hey, all. I'm sorry I haven't been on in forever. Things have been really hectic lately. John and I have been back together for a little while now and things are great! I am so glad that we've worked things out and are moving forward. I am so blessed to have him in my life. Lately, I've been on a crazy roller coaster of emotions. On one hand I am feeling very successful. I made a B in the class I took last semester!! That totally makes me 'happier than a tornado in a trailor park'. (THANKS MATOR!) But on the other hand part of me kind of feels emotionally drained. I don't know what it is. I guess I've been giving a lot of myself to so many other things (like school, chores, trying to find a job, other friendships) that I'm feeling kinda dry. I don't know. I just don't really feel like I'm worth everything that I've been given and it kinda makes me sad. It kinda feels like my self-worth has gone down. I don't know how to explain it. Here lately, I've been trying to think of good things about myself and I can't name any. I know I'm just too hard on myself. Someone once said that you probably know yourself too well to think of good things about yourself (that's totally a paraphrase, but that's the kind of point that was being made). They also said that it's always easier for you to bash yourself, and you can usually bash yourself harder than other people can bash you EVER. I don't know. Maybe I'm just bashing myself too hard. Maybe I just need to get away for a little while and recharge my batteries. That would probably make me feel better, ya think? I think it would help to say no sometimes to things/people that are taking up more time than they need to. PHEW. I am hoping that all this will die down soon. I really need a job. If anyone hears of openings, PLEASE let me know somehow... I'm on facebook, so feel free to message me. Anyway. I will try to post more on here when I can. Again, I'm sorry for being such a stranger. Thank God tomorrow's friday!! I live for those days!