Me relieving my depressing venting out.

Hey, all. I'm sorry I haven't been on in forever. Things have been really hectic lately. John and I have been back together for a little while now and things are great! I am so glad that we've worked things out and are moving forward. I am so blessed to have him in my life. Lately, I've been on a crazy roller coaster of emotions. On one hand I am feeling very successful. I made a B in the class I took last semester!! That totally makes me 'happier than a tornado in a trailor park'. (THANKS MATOR!) But on the other hand part of me kind of feels emotionally drained. I don't know what it is. I guess I've been giving a lot of myself to so many other things (like school, chores, trying to find a job, other friendships) that I'm feeling kinda dry. I don't know. I just don't really feel like I'm worth everything that I've been given and it kinda makes me sad. It kinda feels like my self-worth has gone down. I don't know how to explain it. Here lately, I've been trying to think of good things about myself and I can't name any. I know I'm just too hard on myself. Someone once said that you probably know yourself too well to think of good things about yourself (that's totally a paraphrase, but that's the kind of point that was being made). They also said that it's always easier for you to bash yourself, and you can usually bash yourself harder than other people can bash you EVER. I don't know. Maybe I'm just bashing myself too hard. Maybe I just need to get away for a little while and recharge my batteries. That would probably make me feel better, ya think? I think it would help to say no sometimes to things/people that are taking up more time than they need to. PHEW. I am hoping that all this will die down soon. I really need a job. If anyone hears of openings, PLEASE let me know somehow... I'm on facebook, so feel free to message me. Anyway. I will try to post more on here when I can. Again, I'm sorry for being such a stranger. Thank God tomorrow's friday!! I live for those days!